Something to Write About

One of the things I always used to say on my website was that I had nothing to write about, this was half true - the other half was more that I was sure exactly what I was comfortable with saying. For whenever I've had something to say there's always been this little thought in my head advising me that I shouldn't even if it really would have proved interesting.

It's all part of a wider issue I've lived with for years but tended to ignore, until recently. In fact it is actually something I thought I'd dealt with many years ago but actually when I recently took a long look at my life I've realised I've built my life around the issue. The people around me have probably noticed it but don't probably realise that it's a bigger issue than it appears on the surface.

On the surface it seems like I'm just a shy person, but deep inside me its a bit more than that. There is an anxiety in me that is greater than being just shy in the same way vertigo is more than a fear of heights. In certain circumstances I've known my heartrate to sore, my mouth become dry and on one occassion I very nearly passed out. The issue is called Social Anxiety Disorder.

I'm not going to go into detail about what that means, Ask Jeeves instead and you shouldn't think that I have bad life. As I mentioned I've built up my life around this issue, I've got a wonderful son, the best friends I could ask for and good family, I have a strong life but I think it's time to deal with this issue once and for all.

Going to Australia made me realise there is a world outside that is bigger than the bubble I've built for myself, seeing my son taking his first steps in life has made me realise that time is going on and its no good thing to stay in the same position for too long. So I've made some plans, and I'm taking my steps to rid myself of issues I've learnt to ignore.

Even now I hear that thought in my head, telling me not to post this to the internet or to do it under an alias, but that's the very reason I've written this here, on the personal website I've had for years, where people will know me. Consider this my first step into ridding myself of that little issue.

Comments 0May 16 2010, 8:52pm

Melbourne

With my only previous holiday experiences consisting solely of a stay in Newquay, numerous rainy camping trips and a holiday in a caravan on the Isle of Wight when I was four, I wasn't sure exactly what to expect from a holiday in another country.

Fortunately there was no time for feeling lost or disorientated as the majority of the trip was planned well in advance, leaving little time for it to sink in - actually it still is. A taxi picked my mum and me, and one other British couple up. They, just like my mum and me were in Melbourne primarily to see the Australian Grand Prix.

That couple weren't staying in the same location as us however, their hotel was one of the grandest I've ever ever seen and sitting in the taxi at the grand entrance is probably as near to staying at a hotel of that calibre as I shall ever come. Needless to say our hotel that followed seemed somewhat underwhelming following that.

We barely had time to take in the hotel though as we were already heading off to Albert Park for the first of five days at the Grand Prix - the first one being fairly exclusive with a walk along the pit lane being the highlight.

With the Grand Prix filling up the daytime we only really had a bit of the morning and the evenings to experience Melbourne but the city centre is a nice place, planned streets and trams everywhere and very clean.

Aside from the layout of the streets they aren't afraid to experiment with building styles in Melbourne, old buildings next to ultra-modern new ones. Shopping Centres that aren't just boring and clinical - I wish we'd take a leaf out of their book over here.

I can't say much more about Melbourne because we really didn't experience all that much of it but it is somewhere I'd return to one day for a proper look, without the distraction of the Grand Prix.

The weather was good to us in Melbourne, just off of the average British summer. We did leave just in time though as the morning we left the heavens opened.

Comments 3April 25 2010, 6:57pm

Heading Down Under

I'm about to embark on a huge adventure as I do about a million things I have always wanted to do but never gotten around to doing. Firstly I'll be making my first ever trip abroad, on my first ever long-haul flight and I'll be watching my first ever F1 Grand Prix, well in person I've watched it on TV for years.

My trip to Australia begins very soon and considering I have spent many years tinkering with this website, without having much to put on it in the way of content I hope my trip will finally explain the reason for this website. I'll be updating as and when while I'm down under.

Comments 0March 16 2010, 6:03pm

This website will be finished eventually...

I'm constantly playing around with my website but I have less and less time to get it looking just right, I'm now too tired and would rather go and watch QI and Gordon Ramsey so the new look will have to wait until tomorrow.

Comments 0February 12 2010, 3:18pm